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I honestly hate saying goodbyes.. One of the worst things to do! You've been on my mind since I woke up today, and thoughts of you leaving just for 11 days, makes me sad. I honestly don't know what you're feeling, if you're feeling the same way, or way off. But that doesn't matter. I hope you get to read this before you go out everyday in Florida, and forget about me. I'm going to miss you, ALOT. It's already hard enough not talking to you right now at this very minute, I'm going to literally die not talking to you for that many days! Is it just me, or do you feel the same way to? But yeah, there's so much things I wanted to say before you leave on the phone.. Knowing my dad, he would kick me off the phone. I'm sorry. I'll just type it out to you then.. Honestly, call me soft ot whatever -- but you leaving to Florida feels like you're leaving us behind. I know I'm kind of exaggerating here, but you don't understand how sad I am now. But then again, I'm happy that you're happy. That's all that matters right? I guess... You leaving to Florida smacked me across the face just now -- though you're not gone yet. I'll get over it as the days go by. Hopefully. And when I tell you not to talk to other girls, I'm only playing baby. I've told you, what happens in Florida, stays in Florida. Boys will be boys right? I understand. YOU SUCK THOUGH! I told you to download the song "I Need A Girl" by Trey Songz, its officially our song bitch! You left the laptop in the car, so ovibously you didn't download it! Bitch ass nigga! I'm kidding. I miss you already baby. I want to talk to you right now :(! But anyways... These past couple of days have been non-stopped of laughters. You taught me how to laugh again, and you gave me back my smile. You're like the sun coming upon my dark nights. And strangely, my heart literally twirled me round. Baby you're really amazing, and words may not describe how amazing. You complete who I am and the reason why I’m still here. Boy you're more than everything to me, please don't ever go. Because in the end of the show, I’d still need you by my side. You mean more than words to me, I really can't explain. And if you'd ever leave, I know it'd never be the same. I know I’ve been making stupid moves, and I’m sorry if I disappoint you. I’ll always care, and I’ll always be there. I just want to show you how much love comes from this girl. I was always scared, even though you were never mine -- to lose you to another, it would seem like just a crime. Wow baby, I could stay here for hours, preaching how much I care -- how much that I’ve fallen for you, not even words can bare. No one can ever take you away; it'd be taking away my sunshine. Stay with me always, to clear up all my cloudy days, keep me as yours, what could possibly go wrong? These words are true, cause I love you . :) Okay, enough of this corny shit? I want this to be extra long, but you're probably going to skim through this because you want to be out already, am i not right? LOL! Well now, all i'm left to say is... "I'm your baby" and "your my baby". I miss you baby, have an amazing vacation ♥.

P.S - Don't fucking forget to write me back everyday :(

I FUCKING MISS YOU BABY! ♥

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Cee Nguyen
Today at 11:34pm
fagggggggg!

Francis Magnaye
Today at 11:35pm
Yeah yeah yeah
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Cee Nguyen
Today at 11:36pm
*sticks her middle finger up.

Francis Magnaye
Today at 11:37pm
Babe thats rude
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Cee Nguyen
Today at 11:37pm
loveeeeeeee you toooo bitch ♥

Francis Magnaye
Today at 11:39pm
Aww cute cute :)
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Cee Nguyen
Today at 11:40pm
i don't see whats so cute.

Francis Magnaye
Today at 11:41pm
Just look in the mirror

"A" Maybe We Can "B" Something You Can "C" "DEF"initely

im sick of girls talking shit, and dregrading eachother,
isnt these days the days we should be BUILDING up one another?
why are you so easy to get ? easily to spread ope yours legs, and allow the easy slam.
when he is done "BRUCKING", you at the end of the night..
is he still your man? or did he cut, just like he planned on doing..
sweet you up, pound for abit, and leave cause you were only worth screwing?
he doesn't respect you, he rather neglects you.
and when you fidn out your 5 months pregnant, he aint gonna carry through.
you were simply a quick one night stand, because the OTHER girl siad NO.
and all you took was for him to shake your hand.

-girls frustrate me so much that i have to go from issue to issue,
cant finish one thought without having to start another..
i feel like im using an over used tissue, because i say this over and over
and still i see girls walking around, carrying on like they truely "got it"

when all they have is slackness,
and trust me girls ..
men know how to spot it.

I'm up so god damn early! My sister woke me up this morning to tell me we MIGHT have to bus. Fuck, I can't bus. I need the money to see my baby tomorrow! So hopefully, we find a ride to wonderland today. I don't know, I'm in such a pissy mood this morning too. I'm tired and knowing I don't have a phone to contact my baby tomorrow, how do i find him?! Fuck my life. I hate flopping on you baby, I've basically been doing it the whole time.. But I hope you understand the reasons behind them. I do hope to see you tomorrow baby! Cause you're leaving me for 11 days! And I asked my sister when we were going to Cali, she told me around the day you come back. So basically, i won't be able to talk to you for more than 11 days. I only have $10 right now, SAVE IT CEE! Honestly baby, if our plans tomorrow flop too.. what the fuck. But forget about seeing me! I do hope you have fun in Florida! After watching The Real World, I'm so scared.. You know why. But whatever I guess right? I'm not going to stop you from talking to pretty girls, cause whatever happens in Florida, stays in Florida. But I do expect you to tell me EVERYTHING that happens. I rather have you tell me the painful truth than to hear a pretty lie. I want to call you right now, but I don't want to wake you up. And so yeah, I don't think I'll be able to talk to you tonight or today. Wonderland the whole day, and then my sister told me we might juice at Stevens house after wards. Why? I don't know. But if anything, I'll call you at Steven's house. If I don't call you tonight, gooodnight baby! And hopefully I see you tomorrow ♥

I fucking love how everyones saying different shit about April Tesson. She's a fighter, or nah she's a shit talker thats all. Get you're fucking facts straight, Aprils just full of bullshit. Telling next people about how MY GIRL backed down on a fight? ARE YOU FUCKING DUMB? What are you trying to do April? You can't even return your god damn calls! How are you able to call my girl a pussy for calling you up to work things out? When you can't even pick up or reply to my msgs. I'm not saying I'm the baddest bitch out there, that can fuck you up.. Cause no, that would just be fronting, when I've never seen you fight. But from the things i hear about you, "don't fight that girl she got put to jail for fighting". BULLSHIT. How do i know? Cause she's "fam", and ovibously she would back you up, no? Don't take this the wrong way, I'm not talking shit about you.. And I don't hate you the way David does. I don't know yo, the things David say in this track makes me LOL! And one last thing, this goes to all her "fam", I wouldn't get to close to her. Take in the fucking song! I love it David (Y)

Her life is scheduled, organized and routined,
She finally tore herself away from the regular feens.
She grew up clueless with the wrong influences and people,
But slowly saw things were wrong; life was empty and un-full.
She wasn't happy, other people pushed her around,
Showing her this and that, trying to prove, just all surround.
'Till she grew tired; "Shit I'll make my own choices,
Fuck you & the world," she cut out everybody's voices.
She sat and thought - "What's the most I want in this world,"
Took a while cos everything was all swirled.
Like the money and the look but the love and the books,
Then she saw things; made her shook, the happiness others took.
Her anger forced her to reality, this is what others chose,
To fight for what they want at all costs, all and all oppose.
She's still sitting - "What the fuck do I want?" she opens her eyes,
Realizes, "This pain ain't going till I throw it away, put on a disguise.
No one has to know, they got their own problems to deal with,
Only time someone would care would be the twenty-fifth.
So shut the fuck up and be there for who needs you,
Holding their hand, pulling them out that road makes you happy too."
She don't need nobody cause she got her own head and two feet,
Independancy entered her life, cries and tears were excrete.
She greeted it with a smile, "Whaddup, I see I only have & need you,"
Her bruises slowly mending, the world was beginning to construe.
She wants to make her parents proud, happy, safe and satisfied,
Because everything she's had, wanted & done, they the ones provide.
She'll give up her life just to see them smile, they been put down too many times,
"I'll swim through the oceans, jump through fire, mountains? I'll fucking climb.
Father and mother, I love you; shit that spells out family,
Just be happy and protected; I'm on my knees praying a plea.
And that's where I'm going, going to be and I'll be,
For my parents & my sister, I'll try my best and succeed in a way, you'll see
With Independancy by my side, I'll walk through the hardships,
I'll either soar, jump and come back down, or even fucking trip.
But I'll always be standing back up on my own two feet,"
And finally, she saw that her life was complete.

women are looked down upon, and we can complain all we want,
but would guys have the opportunity to say shit,
if we eased up and knew when to flaunt?
Girls these days talk about independence
and being at the top, but when told to hit to your knees
you dont hesitate to drop, you give the upper hand when you act like
they are what you need, that men make up the higher percentage of your list of whats necessary.
from what you wear, to the way you speak.. and its just become the stereo type,
that if someone so happens to accidently bump you, you turn into cattie and overly hype.
"im sweeter", is that a phrase you can define..
with out sounding like an idiot, if not dont waste my time
wearing shades inside? i dont see no sun,
shouting when im right beside you? or do you do that for fun..
we make ourselves look so stupid and guys can do nothing more than laugh
and girls would freely go around telling other girls
your man wants me cause i got the fatter ass.

I woke up at 7am this morning, just because my dad wanted to tell me I had to do my hours today.. at 9am! When really, the meeting was at 1pm, so I basically stood there like an idiot. Did I mention I WALKED there?! Half an hour walk there and back. I guess that's not such a bad thing, cause I sweated off some fat? :) Anyways, as I was walking home.. I see my girl Jenny waiting for the bus to her work. I chilled with her until the bus came, and we both noticed these boys passing by us so 2-3 times. LOL! Boys and there boy toys. So we decided to wave at everyone that looked at us. One guy honked and asked us if we needed rides, LOL! Ew, some old man too. Okay anyways, I was suppose to get my nails done today... But i got carried away cause i was helping my sister get ready for her date. HAPPY 5 MONTHS! She came home and told me, this niggga didn't even take her to a "fancy restaurant" that he made her dress up in.. She also told me how he made her mad tonight - what a date?! I should so kick his ass right now! MAYBE i will the next time he thinks about coming over! While my sister was out on her date, i was on a date myself with Ricky. He took me to the park, he sat me down, and we watched little indians play. ROMANTIC isn't it? I'll wait for him to grow up, and then marry him! Did i mention how cute his penis was? LOL! HAHA. ANYWAYS, so yeah, thats basically my day. I don't even know why I'm writting. My stomache still kills! How do you get rid of it? :( I feel awful right now. Headaches, and now my stomache. I tried sleeping it out, but it clearly doesn't help.. Please don't tell me I'm getting sick! That's the last thing I tried to avoid this summer. Hopefully I get better in the morning!

Goodnight blog ♥

I have come to the conclusion that I dislike a lot of people and I really don't care. I never try to hide this fact from anyone, instead I make it very apparent to those around me. I guess because of how I act towards the ones I dislike, it automatically makes me a bitch? Well, whatever then, I'm a bitch. Everyone else seems to think the same thing, so this is all I have to say ...hop off, why do I need to like everyone anyway ?

Anyways, I was never this big of a bitch and I know it. The people that I spent these years with had affected me in such a big way that I felt as if they were taking over my life. Every action of mine was a reflection of how they wanted me to be and I ended up seeing a change in myself with every word spoken, but I denied it because I kept thinking, how weak does someone have to be to change so drastically because of their friends? My parents and even my closest friends had seen a change in me and noticed that I wasn't "me" anymore. I know that everyone in my life changes me slightly, but it's usually a positive change, others just try to mold me to fit their lifestyle and that's not what I want. I ended up in a position that I had ever wanted to be in; I was always trying to impress others and show that in one way or another, I was better than them.

I was so naive to think that I could judge and hate others and not receive the same in return. Whatever goes around, comes around, right ? So when it finally came around, and I was finally receiving the negative backlash, I kept wondering why it was happening to me. Sounds stupid, right ? Coming from someone that does the exact same thing. From someone who found it fun to act like a bitch to everyone. At first, I didn't care about what others had to say about me, in fact, I never cared. It just got to a point where it felt like everyone was thinking the same thing about me without even knowing me. Everything that they had heard were from rumors and girls using my name in their gossip rings. These girls don't even know me, they just know OF me. I think it's absolutely ridiculous how someone can judge me solely on the fact that I have a lot of guy friends. Please tell me how it makes me a slut and the "biggest flirt ever" ? Like, seriously ... gtfo. It's one thing if something you have to say about me is true, but a completely different thing once you start to fabricate lies. Do I honestly matter that much, that you have to spend your life trying to make me look bad? You really know you have no life when you do that.

I think it's even funnier when the girls that say shit about you, are the ones that are supposed to be your close girls. Like, why would you go talk to my closest girl and say shit about me; are you stupid? Anyway, that's not the point ... The point is if someone was truly your friend they would never say shit about you. There is never an exception to talk shit .. NEVER. If you have something to say about your friend, go to your friend and say it directly to them. Spare yourself the chance of getting a bad rep because you talked behind your girls/boys back. Personally, I would rather hear the painful truth than some pretty lie. I think it's so stupid how people can just pour out everything to the first person that is willing to listen, that's so bait for getting snaked. You can't base how good of a friend someone is on how they present themselves on the outside because in reality, it's all sugar coated. That's one of the main reasons I don't act nice to everyone, I've learned that once you open yourself up to someone, you get fucked over. You put so much trust into someone and in one second all that trust disappears, but what doesn't disappear are all the little secrets you had told them. So be careful about what you say to others.


So I'm done all my ranting and letting everyone know why I'm such a bitch. I don't plan on being like this for very long; I need to change because I hate who I've become. I need to get back to where I was before I met the wrong people. Time to make a change for myself, my family and my closest friends.

you've asked for another note, but one that rhymes. i don't usually write like this, but if it makes you happy - it's worth the try. and don't mind the mistakes, its hard to think of words when you're really tired. this ones for you baby ♥

the day you appeared into my existence will be cherished forever.
you’re like an angel sent from heaven above, always here for whatever.
i never knew there could be a better tomorrow,
but since you’ve came into my life you’ve taken away all my sorrow
my existence of unhappiness is now of the past
because now that you’re here, i have finally found something real at last
my days of blankness are vanished for good
because you fulfil a great, meaning in my heart, i hope you understood.
you just don’t take in what you have done for me,
you even pushed me to the best that I can be.
there couldn’t be anything more perfect in one place,
your beauty is much deeper than just your face.
now that I have found what I was looking for,
its you, francis magnaye, and I’ll ask for nothing more.

When it comes down to it all, no one can understand me the way MUSIC does. Music is my medication, motivation, and inspiration. I don't just get up onto my feet and jam out with the song I listen to. I sit there and actually take in the lyrics. "Rap is all about sex", I could agree to SOME songs, but some do have meanings. It's like saying, rock is all about cutting one's self. Am I not right? HAHA. Back to my point, music can bring out the best of me. Music makes me cry, makes me laugh, smile, and can also make me tingly. When I'm listening to music, deep inside, life comes running to me. Music is my reason, why I can stand on this planet properly. Life without music is like me without music. Life without music is like me without the one that matters the most right now, Francis. Life without music is like Plankton without a krabby Patty. I guess another way to say this is that,

Life would be dead without music.
Music brings joy to life! ♫ ♥ ♪

hi blogspot! so i don't think i'll be writting in my facebook notes no more, now that i have you. i guess i'll just use it for like surveys and shit. LOL! so it's 11:38 pm right now, almost my "bedtime", so i'll quickly write a new blog. not that tired actually, i drank alot and now its making me HYPED. i dont know what for though :) but anyways, what i really wanted to write about was that one person that means the WORLD to me, francis. i miss him terribly right now. thanks for picking up your god damn phone, fag! LOL, im kidding. no service? s'ooookay. ill forgive you this one time because you stayed another half an hour to talk to me on the phone when i didn't want you to leave to your cousins house. you're the cutest babe! okay i would write more, but my dads bitching at me to go to sleep. anyways, goooodnight blogspot! gooodnight baby ♥




how do you get so perfect baby boy, with so many imperfections?
the answer confuses me, you leave me with all this love affection.
i just know you're wonderful, amazing and handsome all put together.
would it be weird if i told you that i want this forever?
no matter how mad i get, you make my heart melt.
this feeling is and will always be the best feeling i've ever felt.
im surrounded by an island, but somehow you know how to find the boat.
if i had to choose between you and perfection, you'd have my vote.
the beautiful imperfection you show throughout these weeks,
you defined beauty to me and it makes me so weak.
you make my heart skip a beat, i thank god for no rejection.
with every flaw and every perfection
you, francis magnaye, is who i seek.

my beautiful imperfection.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND♥
hey megan, nk, twin'dem, girlfriend, but importantly my bestfriend. today's an important day to me.. why? cause it's you're birthday baby! where would i be if you weren't born? you've helped me these past couple of years.. and i just fucking love you off! no one could ever replace you megan, i don't understand why you would have second thoughts about that. well anyways, how did we meet? i think it was when both our parents made us go to vietfest that year, and they introduced us. i remember going up to you, "woow. you're gorgeous!" , and you still are.. PFT, please.. about fat! to me, honestly.. yes you're getting biggger, but everyone does growing up, right? and you're beautiful baby! if you weren't, whadddup with the "i roll with nothing but pretty bitches" thing? you fit right in babe... clearly i don't, BUT ANYWAYS. remember when i slept over at your house and all we did was had our realtalks.. no lies, i was scared openning up to you, but i did. and then, i just told you everything after that night. you're a person i can always run to with my problems. and do you also remmeber that night when we made a promise we wouldnt let anyone get between us? sure, guys come and go.. i don't mind them, and you didn't either. but letting one of our friends to get between us, baby you're losing it! i could sit here naming all the fun times we've had, but this note would take a long ass time! i'm really tired as well, but i forced myself into making this, though you're mad at me right now.. honestly, i just miss your annoying calls, i miss you random msgs, i miss chilling with you.. and i know as well , you miss me too. i mean, we did EVERYTHING together - who could you really run to after me? you're my bestfriend megan, and though i cant really keep a friendship .. i considered you as my sister. you came into my life, and i don't want you to ever leave it. no one has the love that i have towards you.. not jenny, not my family, and not francis. my love to you is rare to find in me.. and i might not show it, cos im always talking to next people, but you just gotta believe me. im sorry that i isolated you this summer.. i didn't think i would ever do that. i didn't even see it too! you've been telling me how i've been talking to francis alot and i've been chilling with jenny alot.. that i forgot about you. WHAT THE FUCK? i could never forget about you baby! it's only cause things are changing so quickly, and i don't think about what i do sometimes.. i think of myself before i think of you. im so sorry megan! lastnight was also you're birthday dinner, and you wanna know how i spent my night? crying.. i know i sound like an idiot. but thats really how i spent it. you invited my sister and jenny to this dinner.. and looking at the pictures, you seemed like you had fun without me. im glad you did, you deserve to smile ALL THE TIME. well anyways, i have to go to my daddy's work soon.. you don't understand how loved you are megan, we all love you. you're not alone. we all got you. we all wanna see you work hard for what you really want.. you don't need to be the way you are babe. okay, but i shall write more later. i miss you bestfriend, and i love you unconditionally. don't ever think i don't. happy birthday babygirl, call me? ♥

Your SK, twin'dem, girlfriend, & BESTFRIEND.

WE LOVE YOU ♥ ♥

every thought of you fills me with undescribable emotions,
i'll give you my entire, and complete devotion.
of everything i know and love and treasure,
it's you baby, who gives me this perfect pleasure.
i love your ways with me, from mornings to nights,
i wouldn't give this up for anything in the world, i want you always to be in sight.
before i met you, life without you was just fine, was okay.
it was spent pointlessly, getting through each new day.
now that you're here, happiness and satisfaction i see,
each seconds and minutes filled with sweet ecstasy.
i guess what im trying to say is that, everything just feels in place.
so please don't ever let me down, cause theres not one thing that we can't face.
i dont need you to go down on your knees and purpose me with a ring,
it's you that i really want, none of them material things.
you leave me breathless, you're everything good in life ♥